Wednesday, September 28, 2011

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Its been a rough few days. Staying off your feet is really hard. There are so many things you want to do but can’t. I have had the best support system and I have only been on bed rest for 5 days. This has been a real test for me and I have grown so much in just five day.

My ward has been amazing to us. I don’t know a lot of women in the ward so I guess I figured I wouldn’t get a ton of help because I didn’t know a lot. We have gotten dinner brought to us and there have been sisters coming over and taking Donaven for a few hours every day. I don’t have to worry about him. My friend that used to be in my ward also stopped by and told me ok what do you want me to do. Her willingness to help me when she has such a busy life herself is amazing. I am so grateful for their willingness to help my family and I in this time of need. This has truly strengthened my testimony of so many things but most of all the Relief Society. I had 3 women come over last night to come pick up my house and watch a movie. They didn’t even hesitate to do my dishes in the sink to pick up trash the minute they walked in the door. They were so amazing. They even brought me a treat which tasted so good. Instead of watching a movie we ended up talking which was awesome because I am getting to know them and I love them even more. These women that are helping me out will never understand what it means to me and how grateful I am that they are in my life.

Went to the doctor…… My blood pressure went down but it is still high. So my doctor told me that I would probably be on bed rest the rest of the pregnancy which sucks but it’s ok, it will be worth it when Oren gets here. I have to go in every week now. Starting at 35 weeks I will have to go in twice a week and do test to make sure baby and I are healthy. So that will be fun.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

33 Weeks and counting…..

Well this is going to be bitter sweet blog today. I went into the doctor 2 weeks ago and my blood pressure jumped so it gave my doctor a red flag. He told me to take it easy and lay down as much as I can. I just laughed and said ok I will do my best. I do have an almost 2 year old. So it has been very interesting. I have done my best. Those who know me know I can’t sit still for the life of me. There is always something that I can be doing. This past week has been really rough on us. I have had some pain when I walk/sit and people tell me that I am having Braxton hicks and others say I am having false labor. I just don’t know what to think. The hard part is I don’t really remember what bad contractions are since I only dilated to a 3 or 4 with Donaven then had an emergency c-section. I can handle pain pretty good, so just don’t know what to think. So I couldn’t wait to go to the doctor to find out what I was feeling. On the other hand I am really scared because if my blood pressure doesn’t go down I am afraid he is going to tell me the worse news I could hear and that is “best rest.” Worst part of all I have planned a girls weekend away with one of my best friend (Jillian) and we leave as soon as my doctor appointment is done on Friday.

So all packed and ready to leave for my trip away and just waiting for my doctor appointment. So we go in and kind of nervous but I have been really good and I have been resting a ton so I was just crossing my fingers. So the nurse took my blood pressure and she just looked at me and I freaked out even more then I already was. So she was like I am going to take it again and then I will be right back. Well the doctor came in and was like this is not good. With blood pressure this high we need to admit you to the hospital to stay overnight and keep you and the baby on watch. I just wanted to cry. I couldn’t believe this was happening to me. My hubby just looked at me and said breath it will be ok. The worst thing that keeps coming to my mind because my doctor brought it up was that it was going to be preeclampsia. This would mean he could take Oren now. Worst fear. I know he isn’t ready he needs to stay in me and cook for just a few more weeks. So I called my dad and left a message then my sister to tell her and have her call the rest of my family because I wasn’t going to call everyone. My hubby called his side of the family to inform them of the situation. We checked in and lucky us Donaven was having a blast playing with all the tons in the waiting room so he wasn’t a problem. He would see an animal and run over to us and tell us the name and show us the picture. It was the cutest thing. So got checked in and got put in a room lucky me I had extra clothes in the car since I was supposed to be leaving I was able wear my own PJ’s and not the stupid hospital gown. Donaven had so much fun getting into everything. While the nurse was putting the IV Donaven and Travis left the room. Lucky for me she was just cleaning up my hand and Donaven came running into my room and yelled mama and the nurse jumped and things went flying a little. It was so funny she was so glad that she had finished because if not that wouldn’t have been pretty 

My dad and Anna came up to take Donaven for a little bit. Before my dad left Travis and he gave me a blessing and this was the best thing for me to hear. I am so great for men in my life that hold the priesthood and are able to give me a blessing in time of need. Something that I would like to share was in my blessing Travis told me that I need to learn and understand the word “RELAX” I laugh now because I really don’t know what this word means because I don’t know how to. So this is going to be a big trail in my life. I am going to have to depend upon other people to help me around the house and with my family. I am one that doesn’t like to ask for help. I know that I am going to have to get over this and ask for all the help I can get. I just cried when I think about having other people come over and take Donaven for a few hours while Travis is sleeping because I am alive and I can watch my own son its not like I have 2 broken legs. Oren and I are the most important thing right now. I need to keep both of us save from harm. So I have to be a good girl and rest. I got released from the hospital and I am now on Moderate Bed Rest. This means I can get up to go potty and eat but that is it. I can’t go anywhere or do any chores. So my hubby is getting all the responsibility and I feel bad but he has been really good this weekend. He understands the severity of the situation and has done amazing. So lucky to have him in my life. So let’s hope the next 7 weeks go by fast.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

10 weeks left….

Well life has been crazy and slow at the same time. Donaven and I did a lot of traveling in July and we were hardly home. Then August came and for the first time since Travis and I have been married you left me for the weekend and took Donaven with him. I had a weekend to MYSELF!?! I have never had that. I am always the one leaving him. It was actually kind of nice. Didn’t know what to do with myself, so of course I clean the house and worked on the baby room and then my amazing friend Jillian came over and we had a girl’s night which was a blast. We went out to dinner and then watched a movie. I had tons of fun and when Travis got home I said “no wonder you like me to leave” I told him he could do that about once of month and that would be ok with me.
We are getting down to the wire for when Oren is going to grace us. We are so excited. I have been working with Donaven that he is going to be a big brother and that mommy has a baby in her tummy. He is doing pretty well with it. When he sees a baby he goes crazy and then he is done.  I know he is going to be a great big brother. I painted both of the boy’s room this summer and had a blast doing it. I can’t wait to finish painting the whole house but that takes money and time which it very limited in our hands. I just about have Oren room all done just a few things here and there that we need to get. Can’t explain how excited we are to meet this little boy. We think he is crazy for choosing us as his parents because we are crazy and sometime don’t know what we are doing, but then again who isn’t right. We are thrilled that he has chosen us and we hope we don’t let him down. I know life is going to be crazy and I am never going to have down time again but I can’t wait for that.
Update on Donaven. He is crazy as ever. His new favorite things to do are build blocks, clean with a wet wipe, watch Elmo, reading book, repeating words we say and of course play outside. He is getting so big I can’t believe it, he is no longer my little baby. He is sleeping in a big boy bed which he did amazing transferring into. I didn’t have any trouble with that which I was very grateful for. Right now I am teaching him to pick up after himself and its going ok when he is in the mood lol. About 90% of the time he puts everything back where it is supposed to go except when it comes to his books in his room he just throws them on the floor and thinks that it good. He is talking a bunch more which is really fun. My favorite word he says right now is turtle. I don’t know when I love it so much but it is just the cutest thing in the world.
Travis has switch back to grave yard shifts which has been nice and hard at the same time. With school starting and changing schedule it is taking time to get used to it. I am so proud of him and thankful for him and all he does for our family. He is the reason that I get to be a stay at home mom and I couldn’t ask for anything else.