Sunday, September 25, 2011

33 Weeks and counting…..

Well this is going to be bitter sweet blog today. I went into the doctor 2 weeks ago and my blood pressure jumped so it gave my doctor a red flag. He told me to take it easy and lay down as much as I can. I just laughed and said ok I will do my best. I do have an almost 2 year old. So it has been very interesting. I have done my best. Those who know me know I can’t sit still for the life of me. There is always something that I can be doing. This past week has been really rough on us. I have had some pain when I walk/sit and people tell me that I am having Braxton hicks and others say I am having false labor. I just don’t know what to think. The hard part is I don’t really remember what bad contractions are since I only dilated to a 3 or 4 with Donaven then had an emergency c-section. I can handle pain pretty good, so just don’t know what to think. So I couldn’t wait to go to the doctor to find out what I was feeling. On the other hand I am really scared because if my blood pressure doesn’t go down I am afraid he is going to tell me the worse news I could hear and that is “best rest.” Worst part of all I have planned a girls weekend away with one of my best friend (Jillian) and we leave as soon as my doctor appointment is done on Friday.

So all packed and ready to leave for my trip away and just waiting for my doctor appointment. So we go in and kind of nervous but I have been really good and I have been resting a ton so I was just crossing my fingers. So the nurse took my blood pressure and she just looked at me and I freaked out even more then I already was. So she was like I am going to take it again and then I will be right back. Well the doctor came in and was like this is not good. With blood pressure this high we need to admit you to the hospital to stay overnight and keep you and the baby on watch. I just wanted to cry. I couldn’t believe this was happening to me. My hubby just looked at me and said breath it will be ok. The worst thing that keeps coming to my mind because my doctor brought it up was that it was going to be preeclampsia. This would mean he could take Oren now. Worst fear. I know he isn’t ready he needs to stay in me and cook for just a few more weeks. So I called my dad and left a message then my sister to tell her and have her call the rest of my family because I wasn’t going to call everyone. My hubby called his side of the family to inform them of the situation. We checked in and lucky us Donaven was having a blast playing with all the tons in the waiting room so he wasn’t a problem. He would see an animal and run over to us and tell us the name and show us the picture. It was the cutest thing. So got checked in and got put in a room lucky me I had extra clothes in the car since I was supposed to be leaving I was able wear my own PJ’s and not the stupid hospital gown. Donaven had so much fun getting into everything. While the nurse was putting the IV Donaven and Travis left the room. Lucky for me she was just cleaning up my hand and Donaven came running into my room and yelled mama and the nurse jumped and things went flying a little. It was so funny she was so glad that she had finished because if not that wouldn’t have been pretty 

My dad and Anna came up to take Donaven for a little bit. Before my dad left Travis and he gave me a blessing and this was the best thing for me to hear. I am so great for men in my life that hold the priesthood and are able to give me a blessing in time of need. Something that I would like to share was in my blessing Travis told me that I need to learn and understand the word “RELAX” I laugh now because I really don’t know what this word means because I don’t know how to. So this is going to be a big trail in my life. I am going to have to depend upon other people to help me around the house and with my family. I am one that doesn’t like to ask for help. I know that I am going to have to get over this and ask for all the help I can get. I just cried when I think about having other people come over and take Donaven for a few hours while Travis is sleeping because I am alive and I can watch my own son its not like I have 2 broken legs. Oren and I are the most important thing right now. I need to keep both of us save from harm. So I have to be a good girl and rest. I got released from the hospital and I am now on Moderate Bed Rest. This means I can get up to go potty and eat but that is it. I can’t go anywhere or do any chores. So my hubby is getting all the responsibility and I feel bad but he has been really good this weekend. He understands the severity of the situation and has done amazing. So lucky to have him in my life. So let’s hope the next 7 weeks go by fast.